Long time no post

As per the title...it does what it says on the tin (ronseal style) it is not long since I blogged...just since it was a personal blog...the others are so functional. 

Anyway...a super speed blog for 5 mins of my lunch break and it is a personal winge/moan/personal flogging. 

So you feel flattered...dispair...hope...more dispair...fear... All just in a days work. Initially flattered but then slightly creeped out and the cut down, like you're a disappointment....and I'm not surprised if I am, I have very little self esteem...rarely (if ever) feeling attractive/pretty/ladylike. I don't do the tangerine fake tan/extensions/false nails...often told this is a good thing but when those around you make such effort, although possibly mis-guided effort, it leaves me feeling old and haggard. 

I want my confidence back...